Exhausted but Committed

I'm tired and I feel like writing but I'm not sure about what so I'm doing it "stream of consciousness style" tonight.

I hit an important milestone in project Dolphin last night and tonight my brain is completely empty.

I truly believe what I'm working on can be life changing for me but I don't want to build it in public.

The problem with working on a private project is you can't really talk about it.

I want to do a series on AI-assisted learning. I have plenty of note and voice memos about that too so THAT'S nice, but time has this nasty habit of constantly moving forward and I haven't posted here in over a month.

I've put several projects on ice for project Dolphin. Space Vibes is a DEEPLY fulfilling project to work on and deciding to abandon the May/June edition was difficult. However, a phrase I ran into many years ago that has become a saying for me is "what are you willing to give up?"

It's a great way to find out how badly you actually want something. Are you willing to temporarily give up your favorite things for it?

I've also put the tarot videos that I do for new moons and full moons on pause. I can't pause my tarot channel altogether for the most fabulous reason: I know people who've come to count on my weekly readings and I don't want to let them down. 🥰

Finally, although my Friday morning Tiktok streams are often the highlight of my day - and if the week went badly enough, the week - I will occasionally skip them to work on Project Dolphin. The first time I did that felt GREAT. I'm ACTUALLY giving up a favorite thing, so during that hour I'm committed to the task because I know what I've foregone to even be at my keyboard.

I feel better now. Maybe blurting out text directly into Notepad++ and giving it a once-over can become a thing. 😅

It feels weird being on this side of what's essentially a zine page.

I love Neocities.